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Why I Want to Stop Counting Calories


Hey team,

I'm not feeling so great today. Every day since I've hit the healthy weight mark, I've gone over my maintenance. I've not got my period back, so I know I probably do need to gain a few more pounds, but there's still a part of me that wants to be minimally healthy, I guess. I don't want to feel this way, but I do.

It's the calorie counting that's getting me down rather than my actual weight, I think. I hate this habit and yet I just can't haven't been able to stop. Tomorrow is a new day, however, so I'm planning to make a list today to help me move on and not count tomorrow.

I'm gonna make it colourful because I could really use a bit of positivity right now.

  1. If I go over my maintenance by even a small bit, it results in a binge when I count calories (such as now, and I don't want to feel this disgusted at myself again)
  2. Calorie requirements aren't the same every day, so I can't even gage my maintenence 
  3. It keeps me looking forward to my next meal all day and makes me obsessive 
  4. It's anti-social and upsetting, because when someone says "Try this", I can't
  5. It doesn't let me eat my mum's cooking, or at restaurants
  6. It's not even accurate most of the time
  7. It's a waste of head-space
  8. It makes me plan my day around food, and that's a waste of a life
  9. I've been able to give up counting before successfully
  10. Millions of people can maintain a healthy weight without ever counting calories - why wouldn't I be able to?
  11. I choose unhealthy things because they are lower calorie
  12. It's not normal
  13. It causes me stress and feelings of disgust towards myself
  14. I automatically restrict myself when I do it and, since I still have amenorrhea, my body is evidently feeling an energy deficit
  15. It makes me overeat a lot of the time because I feel restricted and try to rebel
  16. It doesn't make me happy
  17. It's a part of my ED
  18. It allows food to control me
  19. It makes me limit my intake of (healthy!) fats, which I (and you!) need
  20. Calories give no insight into the nutrition of food
  21. You don't even digest all of the calories that you eat, especially not from fruit and veg





That's all for today. I'm sorry. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

- A 
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