Hey team, I'm not feeling so great today. Every day since I've hit the healthy weight mark, I've gone over my maintenance. I've not got my period back, so I know I probably do need to gain a few more pounds, but there's still a part of me that wants to be minimally healthy, I guess. I don't want to feel this way, but I do. It's the calorie counting that's getting me down rather than my actual weight, I think. I hate this habit and yet I just can't haven't been able to stop. Tomorrow is a new day, however, so I'm planning to make a list today to help me move on and not count tomorrow. I'm gonna make it colourful because I could really use a bit of positivity right now. If I go over my maintenance by even a small bit, it results in a binge when I count calories (such as now, and I don't want to feel this disgusted at myself again) Calorie requirements aren't the same every day, so I can't even gage my maintenence ...