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What Recovery Means to Me


Hi guys,

For motivation, I thought I'd make a list of everything I'm fighting for.


  • Eating the amount I actually fancy rather than a serving size
  • Eating cake on my birthday rather than some low calorie mush that I've made
  • Spending days out at the beach rather than the supermarket
  • Reading fashion/travel blogs and watching those videos rather than ones about health or food
  • Indulging in chick flicks and chocolate on my period rather than wondering if I'll be infertile for life
  • Enjoying all my favourite sports again
  • Being able to share a bag of crisps with my friends rather than worrying about whether I'll be able to log the actual amount that I had
  • Being able to focus on my school work and knowing I've done the best that I could
  • Having the ability to lie in in the morning
  • Getting drunk with my friends without worrying about the calories
  • Going clothes shopping and judging the outfit rather than myself
  • Letting go of perfectionism
  • Rekindling old friendships
  • Looking forward to dates (and being able to get them!) rather than doing extensive research on what I should choose to eat
  • Going out for lunch with my parents
  • Celebrating with champagne
  • Friends actually wanting to play with and style my hair again, because it won't fall out anymore
  • Being happy about breakfast in bed, or surprise food
  • Baking
  • Reading novels rather than cookery books
  • Spending my days pursuing hobbies rather than looking at nutrition labels
  • Never feeling restricted again
  • Living long enough to be a crazy cat lady
  • Happiness
  • Dyeing my hair lots of colours, and not being afraid that it will fall out
  • Being healthy enough to travel, and trying all those exotic foods
  • Painting my (long and healthy) nails with my friends
  • Enjoying bubble baths without judging my body
  • Waking up and having something good to do that day
  • Baking (and indulging in!) the good stuff, not something like those low calorie molten brownies I once made *shudders*
  • Finding, and creating, myself
  • Getting compliments on my body rather than comments of concern
  • Not really caring what other people think of my body anyway
  • Looking at myself in the mirror, not just my body
  • Not caring about bloating
  • Being a less judgemental person, and paying little to no attention to food choices
  • Having a luxurious Christmas dinner
  • Being able to get a quick snack when I'm out and about without thinking twice about it
  • Being able to try a food/drink when someone asks, "Want some?"
  • Having real dreams and goals, rather than dreams of low calorie junk food and goals that are no more than a number on the scale
  • Looking forward to the future
  • Having room in my head
  • Being able to make new foods spontaneously 
  • Fantasising about boys/girls rather than food
  • Having a movie night with my family
  • Getting popcorn at the cinema
  • Having good things to do
  • Having genuine interests, not just food and nutrition
  • Having a life that is worth living
Of course, recovery is something different to everyone. But these thoughts and this kind of life is the goal for me right now.
- A



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